Can I just say how I’m scared of so many things right now?
I’ve been typing-deleting everything since the beginning of the year because everything does not seem so right to talk about. Not that this one is the best one, but I feel like I have to let it out or I’ll never get over it.
Okay first, the midterm exam exhausted me so much. It was over just this Monday, a week of killing brain cells isn’t so much fun. Now that results are coming up, I can’t help but be anxious about how it’s going to be. Wish me well because I’m lowkey targeting dean’s lister average. Tough girl you have here! Just kidding. (I’m no tough, hence this entry)
Second, Intense hair fall. I don’t know when it started but I am so close to freaking out if it won’t stop within this month. It’s been going for a month (I think) and I feel like I’m getting bald coming these days. I’m starting to get all health conscious slash paranoid because it does not stop there. I have a slight lump under my left ear but it should not be normal if I am not currently cold or have flu. So why the hell is it there?? I’m scared because I also started to get slight head ache from some moments in a day or when I’m thinking hard (normal, i know) and after a long day (normal too when u think of it)But still, I think I need a check up so I could stop self-diagnosing here.
Thirdly, I really want this separate from this entry. Yikes! Gonna get cringeworthy in 321…
I’m feeling super ultra mega worthless and simply not enough.
There I said it.
It might be my monthly strong hormones but it might be not. There is this one day when the universe decided to make fun of me and made me feel all the unwanted things altogether at that moment. I’ve been thinking this over and I thought it would just be right to be one of the things I should be fearing right now but at this very moment that I’m writing this, IT’S NOT. And it seems funny and out of place. So I decided.. no, I should probably stop right now and wish everyone a good day. And that’s what I’m exactly gonna do.
Ciao peeps, have a good life!