Despite all the contradictions of what she believed she can do, she wants to see how capable she is if she tried.
How many times had she fell down from her high expectations? How many times had she disappoint people around her? How many times had she lost hope? Faith? Herself?
She lost count.
She often forget what her goal is, what she really wants. She often ask herself if there is really something she is passionate about. All her life, she get no answer.
But that does not really stop her, no, those low scores on her papers don’t. Not even the fact that someone she knew continuously achieve what she also wants for herself. No. No matter how much pressure her parents put on her shoulder won’t make her stop. Because she believe that if she keeps on trying, she will succeed.
Atleast, that is what she believed.
Most of the time she was unsure of what she’s really doing. She doubt her decision before seeing the outcome. Although how much she hates when things got out of hand, she manage to face the risks.
She hates seeing everything fell down before her eyes but she realized that it is the only thing she could do at that unfortunate time. But she managed, she can manage.
She is not exactly, you know, optimistic; she tried to be one but it’s not really suits her best. She has her worst times because she struggles and that is normal.
She is just the girl who goes on even with her eyes close.
She knows how life works and she’s fine with that. She is fine despite the unfairness and cruelty of reality. She knows how happiness can sometimes last the moment you least expect it, so she learned to grasp every chance she has.
Because everything is worth a try, she always put in her mind.
She do not trust anyone when they say that she is beautiful. While she could not see the good in her, she know better than to give up. And I think that is the best quality about her.
Always sees that failure are one step to victory.
– L S S
APRIL 10, 2017 | MONDAY