We want to be strong.
But we have to be vulnerable.
We don’t want to lose.
But we have to accept defeat.
We want to stand for our dignity and pride.
But we have to think practical.
Funny how we both need things that are completely contrast to the other. But on a particular circumstance, only one particular thing must be done.
Sometimes the more we reach for the top, the more we are unconsciously bringing ourselves down.
We can’t always have the upper hand but we can save ourselves from a complete fall.
Strength is power. If we are gaining it, means we are bound to lose it too. Slowly. What if we drain it in the middle of chaos?
Can’t we just be vulnerable and save our power for something that is worthy.
Or is it worthy?
Is it worthy losing your dignity and pride of the crude thing this life is challenging you?
Or was it really about your dignity or was it your pride? Maybe it was just your ego that possessed you to keep it up, even if it’s already hurting. Even if you are already bleeding.
If you can’t hold on anymore… let go.
Letting go is winning. You win from the fact that you could accept things you can’t before. Maturity. It is like winning yourself, giving ourselves a break from losing something, which is yourself too.
We didn’t know that maybe, amidst of the battle we are fighting, we’ve been losing a part of us. What is winning for, if we can’t bring back what we lost from the chaos?
Accept the things you can’t have.
There are some other things that is in stored for you.
Accept the things that doesn’t matter anymore even how much you treasure it.
But you could keep it.
Keep it to yourself.
…if you have to.
Is writing this makes me a coward? A weak? No.
All I know is, I’ve been strong enough to show off what I can, and I just know how to play with this cruel reality called life.
I learned how to live it.
By living it, we have to leave some things on the way.
In order to push through, survive.
We let it be and watch how things will fall… apart and into places.
MAY 28, 2016 | 7:38 PM | SATURDAY